Just talked to my mom on the phone and my mom cried. I am so fucking sad now and i dont know what to do. I couldnt stop crying and i wanted to stay at home to accompany my mom. As i was supposed to meet baby today, i told him to come over to my house and i`ll cook for him. I thought he would understand.. hais.. but instead he said we`ll meet another day.Hais.. i really need someone to be there for me and i really very badly need him to be there for me to comfort me and tell me everything will be alright but yet he cant see that im in pain and i need him. Hais. What happened to 'i`ll always be there whenever you need me?' Hais..

I think im gonna break down soon.

I fucking hate my sisters. Why must they keep repeatedly doing things to hurt or disappoint my mom? Mummy treats all of you so good and this is what you all do to repay her! Tell you that mummy cry and all you all can say is 'so? what can i do?'
if you know whatever fuck you are doing outside will hurt mummy or disappoint her, den dun fucking do it at all ok! Im not saying im a perfect daughter nor am i saying that i never do things to hurt mummy before but whatever i do, i am definitely a better daughter ok! You are all really fucking heartless!